pretending as usual

 

 

 

i've been putting away things about  you in my mind

i thought  i'm ok and it's gonna be ok..

somehow i have to do this for me, you know..

seemed like pretty successful

i tried.. 

 

but see..

now my eyes is wet

my eyes and ears keep on trying finding you..

 

 

why do this happen to me?

how can this happen to me?

 i'm afraid and confused..

 

 

 i never thought that before ..

 i could control myself emotionally..and

i thought getting some kind of  feeling to tv star 

was a miserable and useless thing in the world.

 

now i see.. 

ignorant and arrogant myself..

 

dear m.j

don't walk away...

please don't walk away...

 

as you sang in 'smile'

my heart is aching but i have to... 'smile'..right?

because..

you did..

yes.. you did..

 

my eyes's still wet

but  my lips in smile like a fool..

because of you m.j..

you are irresistible.

 

 

 

i'm listening to your song 'oneday in your life'.. 

this song feels like being with you.

and makes me comes up

all you gave and told me.

mysterious and beautiful things i've never had .

so precious.

thank you .

thank you with all my heart.

 

michael

i hope you come to my dream.. 

as peter pan did to wendy ..

fly to me please ?

can you do that for me?

if you do.. 

i will waitting for you through the whole night

and maybe..i guess.. i can fly with you.

oh..so good.. 

 

then....good night . michael.

i hope you see in my dream..